okay, the truth is that the blog's been pretty silent lately. lindsey and i both have been somewhat consumed by several factors in our lives, and instead of speaking for her on those matters, i will only speak for myself.
what has happened in the more recent past on my end has been a daily uphill battle to stay positive about our political process, my ever-depressing search for employment, and that paralysis that comes for me when facing a series of (seemingly) paramount decisions.
i've started dating again after an extremely messy breakup this past april, and often the libra in me who derives her comfort in the security of others is thrilled to be once again falling into a union of sorts, while my aries sun sign is simultaneously keeping one eye on the door...and the guy at the next table over. it has been a struggle to keep my heart close to my chest since we started seeing each other, but lately i've begun to settle in and allow myself to be open again.
many of our mutual friends are fairly uncomfortable with our set-up because we don't have a "title." some think this is out of sexual promiscuity, some think it is out of a denial of our feelings, and so forth. what it is to me, is a statement about romantic institutions and a rejection of binaries and gendered language. being a person who often dissolves her identity into that of a partner once the label of "girlfriend" is slapped across my forehead, i was hesitant to once again lose myself after enjoying a summer of hanging out with my new best friend - me. i would like to still be a person, and still have my own life, and more importantly remain under no one's ownership - except for my own. i belong to me. i refuse to be objectified physically or emotionally.
as far as discipline regarding this blog...i'm going to make it my goal to start posting at least twice a week. some weeks i might post more, some weeks (hopefully not) i will post less. i want to begin the discipline of finishing something i start, because i'm sort-of notorious for having ADD when it comes to creative ventures. no word yet on what form this blog will take - if it will be about politics, love, daily life, literature, or some combination in-between. i'm trying to allow myself the freedom to let this space evolve into whatever form it needs to be.
the impatient child in me wants that to happen now.
in addition to a job and a health insurance, please.
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